Am I insomniac..?

Three weeks ago, I am having difficulty sleeping. I can’t imagine I’m awake all night till morning, not sure what to do. I had read a lot of article/tips in the past that might help me sleep. Such as, drink warm milk before bed. It says milk has components in it that your body uses to make Serotonin, a neurotransmitter which helps you sleep. Exercise 1-2 hours before bed. Take a warm-hot bath. It helps relax your body. Or read books.  It didn’t work to me at all regardless of how many times I tried. I am so desperate to know the fact that people needs sleep and seems like I am unfortunate for not getting enough sleep. One day, I came up with an idea to buy wine as a sort of solution to this problem. I get easily dizzy when I drink of any alcoholic beverages, so I though this is the best solution and perhaps this might help of my insomnia problem. It seems like it’s working for 3 days successive drinking of wine before I head to bed. It just a very small amount of wine though. I stopped drinking the wine and so glad to be able to sleep early again without even drinking the wine. I didn't like the taste of wine and I don't want my body get accustomed to any alcoholic drinks.  The earliest time that I could sleep is 11pm. That is the perfect quiet time for me to sleep. I’ll be very happy if I can follow through to that schedule every night. I was worried not to be able to function well when I’m around with  a 3 year old girl, as saying “the terrible threes”. I have to have energy to play with this fully charge 3 year old girl. Back then, I never worried about not getting enough sleep since I have nothing to worry about and no 3 years old to watch or someone to take care of. I have my own pace. I know sleeping is very essential and I realized how the sleep gives a big impact to a human body. It is essential to get enough sleep and I am trying hard the best I can to have 8 hours sleep everyday. Anyway, I am a night person but that moment, I was alarmed, it was my first time for me to found myself lying awake in bed until 7 or 8 in the morning. It’s very unusual to me. I heard the alarm goes off, that means, Chris will be up to anytime soon. I told to Chris that I can’t sleep. Chris took shower, get dressed and all that. He suggested me, to turn on computer play in a little while maybe it might help me but I refused to do it, I am not comfortable playing computer  especially my eyes that time were hurting. I had unusual feeling, it seems like there’s an earthquake, feels like the ceiling is moving. I understand that all those feelings due to lack of sleep. I had to lie down in bed and maybe I get lucky I might fall asleep. I told him not to interrupt me if he sees me sleeping just incase. With no luck, I am lying awake and heard Chris with a little voice saying” are you awake?” I answered him, yes! He just said bye and then he take off to work. I finally fell asleep, not sure when is that happened. I woke up Casey's noise. She wanted me to get up but didn't want to. Do I really have a choice on this?? LOL., That was the first time I have no sleep at all. My sleep went back to normal until yesterday. I can't get myself to sleep again. What I did, I watched the movie called "13 going on 30" played by Jennifer Garner and Mark Ruffalo. This is about the pre-teen who’s unsatisfied of her life and have desire to be "thirty, flirty, and thriving". This is very funny movie and romantic. The movie was over but still I am wide awake. That was 2 am. I heard noise from the bathroom, Casey turned on the light that caught my attention, and she went pee! She went back to her room and I decided to sleep in her room too. She was sound asleep, so I went back to my bedroom. I read a couple of recipe books and then I got frustrated I can't get myself to sleep. I went to the kitchen and grabbed the wine that's in the ref. I pour just 1 ounce of wine...very little. I was frustrated that I can't get to sleep and hoping the wine will help. It didn't work this time. I was lying awake till 3:45 am, hoping I've fall asleep before Chris alarm clock goes off. Lucky enough to have a few hours sleep. I woke up Casey's next to me. I got up 8:30 am, didn't want to but I have things to do that need to be done.  I found a website that gives information about insomnia problems. It is really worth to read www.shuteye.com. I hope to be able to sleep early tonight!

Posted on June 20, 2008