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Archive from my old Journal 2006
Reminiscing my first experience in California -The travel from Philippines to California I have a lot of things to say but don't know where to start. I arrived here in California on March 19th, 2004. I know everything will be new to me. When I'm in Manila Airport waiting for the plane, my mind was busy thinking about what will be my life will be like here in California. My heart is leaping for joy, glad to know the fact that I am going to stay with my husband but I can't ignore the feeling of being scared. A lot things came to mind, What if I am one of those Filipina women that are abused by their husbands. What I'm going to do if I am in this situation. I have nowhere to go and don't know anyone here...something like that....it is pretty scary. I have faith and I do believe the man I marry is not that kind of person. I have mixed emotions, happy, nervous...a lot of things. What if Chris doesn't show up at the airport...am I ready for this...??? I remembered , one time we were eating dinner, Chris asked me, what I'm going to do if he doesn't show up at the airport. Cry!!!!!!!..You know what, that is really a big problem. But first thing that came to mind is call Chris’ parents. I know I am a very shy type person but in this situation I think I will have guts to call Mom & Dad.LOL. I make sure I have their home number, is in my wallet! And I still have another option, just incase I will call Pastor Gerry.
I also
asked the question to Chris, what if I didn't
show up, he said, he will swim to Manila!
(ha ha ha) Anyway, finally, I'm on the
plane, my very first time to be on big plane!
What a great feeling when I'm on the plane, I
cannot sleep, I'm to excited to sleep! I keep
watching the time and keep praying to have a safe
trip, when every time I close my eyes, I check
out the window, to see if there is sunshine
already. I think everyone on the airplane was
sleeping, I'm the The pilot is announcing that we're in San Francisco airport and about to land, I have decided to use comfort room one last time and not think about using CR in the airport. And also I have no idea where the CR in the airport is. As I remember, Chris told me San Francisco Airport is real big, I don't want to get lost. Speaking of lost...I left my hat on the plane. I am not sure exactly what time we landed in the airport, I think it was around 6pm. My eyes was very busy looking around, I was astonished the airport was nice & big. The cold embraces me as saying “Welcome to California!!” I uttered a word to say Thank you Lord for the safe travel. I have 2 suitcases and 1 big box...and it is very heavy!! I'm at the immigration window, I handed my sealed documents to the immigration officer. He is reading my documents closely and asked me a few questions. He talked very fast and had a very serious look. After the thumb print, he said, with a smile, “Welcome to California and have a good night!” Whoa, I was relieved by his smile...I just followed the people and again I was shocked that the big door just opened, it's automatic. I said, wow very nice. I don't remember if I encountered this kind of door before. This is new to me! The people were rushing to go home. they are running! I just followed them. I'm in baggage area, waiting for my baggage. I keep worrying that my baggage is to heavy for me. How can I get the baggage from there. I can see my baggage is on the line, ready to be picked up, I tried to pick up the box but it is too heavy and I can’t get it off the conveyor. I have to follow all my baggage. I'm glad that there was an American guy who helped me with my baggage and helped me put it on the cart. I am to shy to speak but I think he deserve to my thank you soooooooooooo very much. And I did! First word I speak in California....he he he. Here comes the most awaited day for me and Chris. I keep looking around for guy who is wearing a red shirt! I told Chris to wear my birthday gift to him, the red shirt. Chris said, he can't see me because I am hiding behind the boxes. I saw him, he was in the front. My knees started shaking...I don't know every time I see the love of my life I'm shaking...he he he. Whoa, the most happiest moment is here and we're hugging and kissing each other!! J....... I can't really express the joy I felt that time......so awesome! The Lord is witness to how happy I am, to be in the arms of Chris again and forever. And the new journey has begun...When we are on our way home...my eyes are filled with joy...and start to explore the new place.....beautiful road! I can't sleep in the evening of my 1 or 2 weeks here. I'm up all night. All I did is go online and chat with my family and make phone calls. In my 1st month here, I'm still a little shy to Chris. Yes, we are married, but this is our first time being together and very far away from my family...my family keeps telling me to try to be myself and to get used to being here because this is now my new home and Chris is my new family. The first 3 months here, I keep thinking about going home. But when I remember Chris, I can't. I don't want to leave Chris. It will be more painful if I do it. When Chris leave me, when I'm in Calbayog...I feel very alone. I remember my family was always trying to cheer me up. Even though Chris and I chatted online, I still want Chris beside me. I am very attached to him. The thought to go home is not a solution. It is very lonely, I can't help it but I cry here, especially when Chris is working. I spent most of the time on computer but still the feeling of homesick makes me crazy. I'm alone, no friends, no neighbor to talk to, every house is close, the street is very silent and also the food I am used to eating on a daily basis. But days go by....I'm getting used to it and learning to love it here especially, after I get pregnant. I talked to my baby all time...rubbing my tummy. I feel comforted and also Chris sent me e-mail everyday from work and this also helped me out with being homesick. I am glad Chris is always there for me. If I feel very lonely I just phone Chris at work. I'm glad I get pregnant right away. Maybe this is the reason why our little honeybunch is out in the world 2 months early, she can't wait! She wants to make Mommy happy and daddy too! Now, I' doing fine but occasionally I miss the Philippines, my family, friends, my lifestyle there , I think it's pretty normal that kind of feeling. I remember Rev. Kim said that I'll experience the homesick for a few months. He is right! I'm a little bit adjusted now to the lifestyle here. I have few friends. My husband is been good to me and we are blessed with one angel....the family of Chris is good to me and always there too. What else to ask for...? All my advice to those who are planning to marry a foreigner, think hundred times....are you ready for this? are you ready to move out and leave your family?
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